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walking through the wilderness(dreams)

a fog laden river marks the start
the finish is left undefined.
with each splash, each sloppy stroke of the paddle
another mystery is one clue closer to being solved
another adventure is one step farther away from home
the waterfalls like grace, a rushing pour
the moon gives us direction, and sheds its light
the mud covered trail gives us what we need
we play follow the leader with the stars
we are taken upward with no intent to return
another step, another stroke
wisdom filled we gaze at your beauty
you guide us by night and give us rest

a creek runs past

the wide expanse glares at me with unrequired hope
as the shell of my existence dances vividly across
while reflections sing of glory loudly to the beat of desire.
i find myself at a loss for words as the morning light fills my heart
with a passion that honours the crisp new day yet requires reckless abandon.
the fire crackles writhing in pain as we bask in its tears
as much as time holds us together yesterday has a empty tomb
and tomorrow will never come, so find today.



these are some really random writings of mine.
-chad

moose video

Well on Thursday I almost ran into a moose with my bike, not only did i almost run into a moose i almost ran into a moose and its baby, which if you know anything about moose you dont want to mess with their babies. see i was going down a path with my new video camera and video taping adventurous things in alaska to promote our adventure dts that we are doing next year so i got footage of it, unfortunately i dont have the cable to hook my camera up to my computer yet, so here a other moose video that i shot maybe 4 months ago.


-chad

the sand on my feet

1. cloudsflying high, wish i had just a little more zoom
or would have caught this guy as he was swooping before he flew up there
low tide

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hope

1. Perseverance!
Romans 5: 1-5
Peace and Joy

Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2 through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. 3 Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
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second wind

well its kind of an appropriate title as this is really the revival of this blog, and because i just hit my second wind and its 12:42am. might have had too much coffee, maybe my afternoon nap threw me off but im not sleepy.
so I got back from Haiti a couple weeks ago and now want to do some stuff in this blog again so hopefully the passion stays.

1. today i was at Sunday school and the man leading it named Arlen metioned us a bible relation old new/ testament that i had not realized before psalm 23:2 and mark 6:39 you can read the context there are other cross pieces too
sorry i tried to copy paste from bible gateway but it didn't work

but these links work
psalm 23

mark 6: 30-44

thats the post for this fine night, hopefully i can sleep now

chad

warm warm

1. the temperature in Homer, Alaska. 1 C the temperature in Port- Au- Prince, Haiti is 41 C w/ humidity.

2.Got new(actually new, not thrift store) shoes for the first time in almost 3 years. on sale for half off wooo.

3. 4 of the top 10 oldest living people are Americans, only one of the top 10 is a man, the oldest person in the world is Kama Chinen for Japan she is 114 years and 324 days old

whoa

1.
if you could only use one condiment for the rest of your life what would it be?

2.

Courage is not simply one of the virtues, but the form of every virtue at the testing point. C.S. Lewis


3.quote of the week
"things don't seem as they appear" -me(i cant remember the context exactly, think it had something to do with the amount of money on our board of needed money for our outreach to Haiti)

passion

1.He is jealous for me, Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us oh
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all
He is jealous for me, Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us oh,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all
He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.

And we are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If His grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
And heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest, I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way…

That He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.

2.
I've been reading the shack and the content recently has been hitting me hard, the healing that God has for us, the love that He wants us to live in. Now the shack isnt the bible but it really attacks false presumptions that God doesnt care about my deepest hurt, that He is just the big guy in the sky who im going to meet someday, honestly i have had to repent for the mentality that God doesnt want a deeper relationship with me, and i hope that if you see yourself in a place that you are apathetic towards going deeper with God, that you will repent and cry out to Him. because it will bring the life more abundant, putting your roots deeper in Him. when i feel overwhelmed by how far i have to go, by how imperfect I am, I have to remember that all i can do is be open to Him and take the step towards Him he doesnt expect anything more. but if I cant look at Him as a loving Father, as my loving Father, then i have to move towards that, then i have to fight for that, because the devil will tell you that God doesnt care about you.





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heart

1.

Psalm 139

For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.

¹ O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.

² You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

³ You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

⁴ Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

⁵ You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

⁶ Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

⁷ Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

⁸ If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

⁹ If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

¹⁰ even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

¹¹ If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

¹² even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

¹³ For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

¹⁴ I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

¹⁵ My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

¹⁶ your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

¹⁷ How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

¹⁸ Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

(our battle is not against flesh and blood but the things(demons, wrong thinking, etc.) that set themselves up against the freedom, the love, the hope, the grace, the complete forgiveness of the Lord Jesus Christ)

¹⁹ If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

²⁰ They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.

²¹ Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?

²² I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

²³ Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

²⁴ See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

2.

Alaskan baptism- we didnt end up getting through the ice, so we had a 3x3x4 tub, video to come.

3.

"The truth is incontrovertible, malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it, but in the end; there it is." Winston Churchill

may truth search you, let it be on your lips and heart.

-chad

love

daily drip

1.
faint drip of yesterdays sorrow rolling off the roof
the newness of today thwarting its weight
raindrops fall on me and make time stand still
the honest out pour stirs my heart
gives me a new sense of wonder
are these tears from my Lord
the sun doesn't bend it never stops shining
will we choose to walk in the light of Gods love
until the brightness of heaven is fulfilled
will we see the drops of fresh melt on our windows
and see our reflection in His streams of Mercy

2.
^{Psalms 85
9} Surely his salvation is near those who fear him,

that his glory may dwell in our land.

¹⁰ Love and faithfulness meet together;
righteousness and peace kiss each other.

¹¹ Faithfulness springs forth from the earth,
and righteousness looks down from heaven.

¹² The LORD will indeed give what is good,
and our land will yield its harvest.

¹³ Righteousness goes before him
and prepares the way for his steps.

3.

lift a banner

1.
Psalms 89:3
I will declare that your love stands firm forever, that you established your faithfulness in heaven itself.

2.
I am clean shaven for the first time in quite a few(I think November was the last time I was) months.

3.
Ok so I'm going to attempt to repeat a joke that I heard yesterday.

so there is a pastor lets say his name is Demetrius he is in a town named Gaffe, its somewhere in New Hampshire. (I added the names to make it more personal) and there is a flood that is coming to that town, they send out the police to evacuate the town, they come to the pastor and say you got to come with us the flood is coming, he boldly declares "God is going to save me" and so they eventually leave him because they arent going to force him. so the water gets higher and higher and eventually the water is coming up to the foundation of his house and some members of his congregation come to him in there boats they say "pastor we got to go" pastor refuses again says "God is going to save me" . and so the water continues to rise and rise and rise and the pastor has to climb on the top of his roof, the coast guard comes with helicopters they come down in the cage and the pastor refuses to go again, says" God is going to save me". so the flood comes up and the pastor drowns to death. He gets to heaven and Hes kinda ticked off, "he says why didnt you save me" God replies," I tried to save you 3 times"

imagine

1. Today I went on a few walks, down to Safeway to get some stuff; down to the beach to gaze at Gods beauty, to hear the sound of waves. to imagine the paintbrushes of God .
didnt bring my camera. i tend to leave it behind these days. im sure it will come out again soon so that i might share what my eyes see. today i will leave it to your imagination. the pink from the sunset seemed to dance across the snow laden mountains, the stream of water flowing from the hills melted snow sparkles in the fleeting sunlight, the awful flow of muddy water isnt the only thing coming down from the hilltops, the beastly grazers of all things bush related retreat from the overwhelming flood of snow. day fades to night.
2.

3. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T1g3ENYxg9k

pour yourself out, be refilled

1.When I find the still place, the place where there is no electrical drone, no whispered conversations behind the wall. When I have forgotten what noise sounds like, when all I can hear is my own sigh, my own breathing, my own heart beat.... each step creates a shadow that wanders carelessly, with each shuffle dreams are stirred. Black and white inspires my heart to rest, but the days bright sun quickens my spirit to breathe. The question "where am I?" feels redundant, overused. Hope always answer "Right here with me".
2. what would life be like if there was no such thing as the colour purple?

3.

day whatever. ok I dont really find snow all that interesting, but alas i got nothing better

1
one of our students Kevipak snowboarding on 4 feet of fresh snow.


2.
"All the great things are simple, and many can be expressed in a single word: freedom, justice, honor, duty, mercy, hope. "
Winston Churchill

3.
Isaiah 55
¹² You will go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their hands.

day 8. light

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2
3 I am officially co- leading a Discipleship training school's outreach to Haiti, I believe our main base in Haiti is about a hour north of port au prince. YWAM has locations in Haiti so we are going to be going into something established. Our team is 8 people, i will update with ways you can support us and the people of Haiti.

day 7. untitled

1: "the grass is greener on the other side thought process is a lie, the grass is greener where you water it"

2: still snowing, i feel like im trapped by the snow. yay for a partly cloudy forecast till saturday

day 5. I am the wind

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2.

christian pickup lines
"how many times do I have to walk around you to make you fall for me?"
"you make the Queen of Sheba look like a hobo."
"i have familiarized myself with all 5 love languages, in fact, i invented 4 of them."

3. if you had a dream life what would it be, would there be trials, how about suffering or sacrifice?

day 5. breathe

1. God thought my previous bible verse and picture wasnt quite the representation of his power that he wanted, hes been busy breathing i guess haha, we had about a foot of snow yesterday morning, accompanied by rain/ snow last evening.

2.
i wrote my second ever cheque last week, even though ive had a chequing account since i was 8, never had a chequebook till last month

3.

funny quote of the week
"so did you meet any Canadians over there in Vancouver?"

day 4. white

1.

2

Job 37:5-6

God's voice thunders in marvelous ways;
he does great things beyond our understanding.

He says to the snow, 'Fall on the earth,'
and to the rain shower, 'Be a mighty downpour.


3. interesting fact about chad

I can not recall ever wearing sweat pants in my life(depending on the definition of sweatpants)

day 3. joy

1. this is a book that i found in our living room type thing downstairs, i found the first 3 chapters pretty interesting other than the fact that i fell asleep while reading
2. quote of the day
Jesus takes the “not good enoughs” and he chooses them, invites them by name into discipleship, what i find most interesting about mark 3:13-19 is that the disciples had names" Johnathan Walker (speaker this week)

3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HhgzQ7RWoBg

my 2 teams members are the two girls handing out hot chocolate and the one getting interviewed is the one i went down to vancouver with. if you look close enough you might see my back

day 2.

1 chorus to above all

Crucified
Laid behind a stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all

2

3.
could Jesus create such a spicy burrito that He Himself couldnt finish it?

day 1. clouds

1.
2.

2 Corinthians 3:2-3

²You yourselves are our letter, written on our hearts, known and read by everybody. ³You show that you are a letter from Christ, the result of our ministry, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts.

3.
if you had to build a trailer park anywhere in the world where would you build it?